We finally were able to afford a gym membership with California Family Fitness. We have been going for three weeks, and I have lost 12 pounds. I am using a handy app on my phone that helps me log all of my calories and exercising. Of course, watching our diet and portions has helped a lot. I have cut out the Starbucks (EEEK!) and the Vodka (GASP!). I am feeling great, and keeping motivated to go even further. Now to just move forward and keep going in the right direction.
In other news, my daughter has a slight cold. I am off work the next few days to stay at home and be a mama. I love it. I wish I could stay with her every day. I am sure she would love that too. I am sure the dog would love to be home with people every day instead of alone with the cat.
I also recently started a second “job” as a Passion Parties independent sales consultant. This second job is totally fun, and probably shouldn’t even be called a job. I love it. I am still building my business, and waiting for the day it can become a full-time job. I have met so many interesting women, heard great stories, and helped women experience themselves for the first time. It’s been great.
My life is headed in the right direction, I am just waiting to figure out what my next moves are going to be. I am praying daily for a sign as to what my next move needs to be. I am thankful for what we have, and I am excited to see what the future brings for my family. Now to just keep moving in the right direction.
As part of my make over, I have decided to take on a new venture. Not just to help change me, but to earn me some extra money and possibly give me the opportunity to have an at home job versus a full time retail job.
My new venture is an outside consulting job, which is party based. It’s not Mary Kay, its not Scentsy, its much better than that! It’s Passion Parties. My theory was, you can make Scentsy stuff, and you can buy make up everywhere. Who wants to go into some hole in the wall shop in a racey neighborhood with a scarey hairy man and strippers all over the place? (At least that is how every one I have ever been to is!!) I personally would much rather have another mom selling me this stuff in the privacy of my home than some creepy guy in a store.
I was also pleased to see that the products aren’t just vibrators! It’s products for sexual well being for both husbands and wives. They have a full section just for men! It just seems to he a nice company for real couples. I can’t wait to get started.
For Christmas, I asked for some new make up, and decided that I should write a post based on my new spoiles.
First, is a glam palette by Bare Minerals. It has a day time look and a night time glam look. I have worn both looks and get non stop compliments! Love this palette.
I also got “They’re Real” by Benefit Cosmetics. The best mascara I have ever tried. We are talking lift, thickening, lengthening, amazing eyelashes. I also got a sephora stack of various lip glosses that I haven’t tried, and some cleaning cloths. The cleaning cloths by sepgora don’t remove the mascara at all. I have my Neutragena wipes that do a much better job.
So needless to say, the mascara and the palette are amazing and I love them.
So, I was browsing the book, and found another recipe, which I changed up a bit, and it is amazingly good, makes a ton, and can be frozen for those lazy days.
- 1 Can Low Sodium Black Beans (Drained)
- 1 Can Low Sodium Pinto Beans (Drained)
- 1 Can Tomatoes and Bell Peppers
- 1 Bag Frozen Corn
- A Dash of Chili Powder
- A Dash of Tabasco Sauce
- 1 lb Ground Turkey Cooked
Cook the turkey with the onions, then combine all ingredients in the crock pot, cook on low for four hours.
The recipe in the book is a lot different, so I modified it quite a bit. It called for a can of corn and a table-spoon of sugar vs my bag of corn which is a larger quantity of corn. Instead of the black and pinto beans, it called for kidney beans. So needless to say, I changed it up based on what I have in the pantry. 🙂 My husband loves the meal, and it was good for three nights worth of dinner, plus a lunch for me. Now I am making it again to freeze for the lazy days. We made burritos’ one night, nachos another night, and tacos. A friend even suggested putting corn bread mix on it while cooking, which I don’t have any of that, so needless to say, it isn’t getting done.
On the diet update, I haven’t lost any weight, but I haven’t been trying as much as I have promised myself. We ate at home a lot this week, but work has been slow so my daily walking around the big box store isn’t happening as much as usual. It has also been storming here so I haven’t had the ability to walk around the neighborhood. At the same time, I haven’t gained any, so it’s somewhat of a wash. The eating healthier and the lack of physical activities has evened out. I have lost a few millimeters centimeters off the hips, which did get me into my skinny self/pre-pregnancy jeans, which I am excited about.
I tend to eat the same way over and over and over again, and no matter how much I exercise, I still manage to gain weight. I have actually lost a fraction of a pound over the last week, so it is truly a move in the right direction. I took an hour out of my day today to prepare meals for the week to make eating healthy at home easier and more appealing, as well as cut up cucumbers, celery, and carrots as easy grab-n-go snacks, to avoid buying a snickers bar or a bag of chips.
Eating healthy isn’t just a way of eating, it is a whole lifestyle change that takes time, effort, and commitment to do the things you need to do to continue eating healthy You can’t eat healthy and be lazy, because if you are lazy, you will want to go through the drive through instead of make a leaner burger at home. I know I keep talking about all of this, mostly trying to embed it into my own head, because I am not showing much of a change. Maybe I will start posting pictures for all of my readers to see. I have been shrinking, and I have a flatter tummy today than I have in years, just the scale doesn’t show the same thing.
Note to self: More Water!!! I think I am retaining water thus causing the scale to reflect a heavier weight.
So, I have been using the Noom app for about a month now, and without modifying my eating habits, exercising habits, just keeping an eye on what I am eating so that I know how bad it really is for me, and keeping an eye on my daily life, seeing how many calories I burn in my day-to-day life without trying, I have actually lost five pounds. I think now I will start actually watching what I eat, and trying to increase my daily step count so that I can lose even more, and quicker. We have still been eating highly unhealthy foods, as my husband “isn’t motivated to diet since he can’t afford a gym membership.” I was actually planning on talking to him tonight about what I blogged previously. It isn’t about losing weight, it is about a healthier lifestyle all together, diet, activity, heart health, and living longer so we can have more time with our daughter.
Don’t get me wrong, we both aren’t the picture perfect specimen of whatever, but we aren’t rolling down the block like bowling balls either. We both need to quit being lazy with our diet. I know I have been blogging about this for a few weeks now, and since I didn’t change my lifestyle at all, I just kept an eye on what I do and my habits, so I know where I can make some changes, I feel I can try to lose some weight, and not have to spend hours a day at the gym. So here is my next goal.
For the next month, I want to lose another five pounds in the next month. In order to do this, I will drink less coffee and soda, and more water and tea. If coffee is a must, I want to skip the latte and brew my own at home. I will make at least three healthy dinners a week, versus our incredibly yummy and ever so cheesy nachos. I know I have spouted all of this before, but now that I have just observed myself for a month, I think I will be more successful in the future.
Here goes nothing.
I keep hearing on the news that people on food stamps purchase crappy unhealthy food because it costs too much to eat healthier. Ok, as one who just went to the grocery store for one meal, I am going to have to go ahead and call “Bull-Shit!” on that argument. I purchased quite a bit of food, and spent about what one meal for my family at some sort of fast food joint like Taco Bell or Burger King. The list of stuff I bought:
- The stuff for just this meal:
- 3.73 lbs of Boneless Skinless Chicken Breasts (Eating Right Chicken Breast Boneless Skinless Extreme Value Pack)
- A Baguette of Sourdough Bread (We need a side right?!?)
- A bottle of Cabernet
- The stuff for this and many meals in the future:
- Reduced Fat Mayonnaise (the small bottle)
- A jar of paprika
- A jar of dried oregano leaves
Ok, now just so you know, this meal cost me $25 (Not including the bottle of wine, that was $8.99). The meal will feed us for three nights! It costs us $20 to get through the drive through. And now for the kicker…the chicken breasts were not from chickens, I think they were from Godzilla. I used three of the five chicken breasts, froze the other two, and plan on making slow cooker chicken soft taco’s with them next week! So really, from the $25, I am getting three meals for two, and then another meal for four (my parents are coming and I plan on making the chicken soft taco’s when they are here.)
Both recipes are from the Fix it and Forget it Lightly cookbook….both take about ten minutes to prepare before work, and at these prices, who needs the drive through?
When I want to go out on a casual date with my husband, I like to look good, but don’t want to overdress the occasion. I love these skinny jeans with some pre-worn accents. I also love the shirt, with the ever so flattering rouching and asymmetrical cut. The jacket is amazing, and of course, the shoes are gorgeous. I love this look for a fun Friday night date of Dinner and mini golf!
For a girl with my shape, the KAMILAH top by Ted Baker is a must. The rouching hides the roles, and the top is long enough to sit on the hips. The detail in the upper portion of the shirt will help hold the attention of onlookers up, instead of allowing them to focus on the mid section.
I have been a mom for four months now, and I will say, it is a definite adjustment. It is very hard to get used to, and I have been having some trouble adjusting. I have thought it was me, that I was selfish, that I am not cut out for this job. I have been wondering what is wrong with me. I have wanted a child for so long, and love having her, holding her, playing with her, and being with her, but at the same time, the adjustment is killing me. I wonder if I am alone, I wonder if this adjustment period is hard on other women too? I wonder if I am going to be an awful mom, or if I am going to a great mom, and this feeling I have eating me away inside effects other women.
Deep down, I know I am a good mom. I love my daughter unconditionally. I know I get frustrated when the sleepless nights are stacking up and there is no relief in sight, but in the end, I still hold her close and we fall asleep together on the couch. I have been vomited on, peed and poo’d on, and it doesn’t bother me. I just keep going. I have held her close during her shots, and kissed her little boo-boo’s.
I have been doing research, and I have found that I am not alone. This adjustment period happens to a lot of women, not just me. This feeling of being completely overwhelmed happens to the best of them. Women all over the world experience this, and there are a lot of options out there for women, and support groups. One helpful site I have found: Postpartum Progress
I won’t let this feeling I have inside, this anxiety of motherhood, this desire to run away from my life, inhibit my ability to be the best mom I can be. There is help out there for women who feel this way. There is help out there for women who feel that maybe they bit off more than they can chew in their new road to motherhood, or adding an additional member to their family. There are a lot of symptoms to Postpartum Depression, and there is also a lot of ideas and ways to help. Since I don’t want to take the easy way out, and just go directly on medication, I am going to start journaling both privately, as well as on this blog. I want to feel like myself again, and journaling has helped me in the past with previous cases of depression, so I am hoping that it will help me again with this case.
This is a process, this is a move in the right direction, and I hope that I get from this process what I need.
I created this look for work. As many of you know, I work for a big box retailer, and so I am on my feet most of the day, and need to be comfortable. This look is versatile also, you can wear it on a weekend outing, nights out, so many things events. This is my first look that I have created on Polyvore.com, so expect more to come later on down the road.